Rest

logging off and logging in

I don’t consider associating meaning to ordinary moments as a futile activity. Thus, today, the ordinary moment of returning to work after a ~2-week PTO occurred and this—I concede—was meaningful enough to write to you.

With no travel plans overlapping this PTO, I had planned to spend my time wisely pursuing my ambitions with a zeal while also ensuring to recover and rest, sufficiently. I recognize that wanting to achieve both may have been too much at odds, especially, as the results of this (outline of a) plan were all too hazy for an in-depth breakdown. Yet, any reasons I pondered over for missing out on the former plan, begun to take form of old excuses. And yet, having rested sufficiently, I could (finally) clearly see the self-critic had continued putting in the long hours.

In a great story is the need for it to live on its own accord or pace. December, I find, has a reputation for framing the protagonist connecting with her own sense of agency.

- Rizwana